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this video revives my heartbeat. i love creative imperminance. that is something that is missing with digital art. digital art is all about the archive. i feel that this piece while archived, still celebrates imperminance. maybe computers represent the occidental's fear of death? we are scared of loosing our power so we incessantly archive everything that we can, until we reach a state of meltdown.

the diagnosis? paralysis through information overload. it's every hard drive crashing at the same time. in the mean time we've forgotten how to spell, how to draw caligraphy, and how to look our loved ones in the eye (we're too used to webcams). okay so that's very poetic and dark, but that's how i'm feeling right now.

dark, like a rolling tidal wave of change. you don't know what will be left over once it passes through your life. despite the dark musings, i've got some amazing changes ahead; i just filed my intent to graduate, i'll be publishing another article along with my video, i'll be seeing my friends from mexico soon, and making new friends in costa rica.

so why all the darkness? well i just broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years. that is a big change. even though i know i shouldn't, i want to call him every second. even though i have a great place to live, and a loving supportive family, i still want to sleep at his house. problem is i'm really not happy overall. i think it's for the best that i did this, even though it breaks my heart just thinking about living without him. maybe one day when we're at a better point in our lives we'll be together again. right now it's not the time.

so cheers to changes, to the eternal ebb and flow of life.