hail mary full of grace

nathan left for vancouver last night and i am left filled with memories, tonnes of new books, and vitamins. i'm on an herbal kick. juicing carrots and beets and ginger and kale, cleansing, reading, soaking, masterbating.

not working. i'm at work now and i'm diddling away pretending and clicking and waiting for 2:45; doctors appointment. everything's wrong doctor, i'm so ashamed. i've been told to hide my body because it contains original sin.

stigmatization leads to fetish.