every day i look around my manufactured world feeling helpless and just excepting the way things are. i don't think of myself as someone who could change things... renovate buildings, writing books, making art, designing futures. i leave all of that to the experts.

today i feel like i am in a place of empowerment. finsihing up loose ends at work, going to hungry4change, making ties with cool events and people... taking myself seriously.

wrecking ball wimmin. creating new possibilities.

it was so nice to chill with zeesy and amanda all weekend. d.c. is my home away from home. too bad i puked on moby. he's not really straightedge... he likes little girls, beer, john kerry, and abortion.

journeying. journalling. future journeys with goddesses and warlocks. reading, writing, weaving, justice, peace. what do we really want? funding? relaxation from the rat race? canoes? vegetables? where will i be in september i'll see you, another day/year/second gone past.

tumble weed on the road side
i will see-
dicern truths to my best ability
cut it out from
landscapes and
rearrange new
possibilities
deconstruct hier
archies . decoloniz
e language . my
body/mind
complex

i keep on smelling things in my apartment. burnt toast, litter, left over cooking, funny things... maybe i should clean my room? my roomates say i'm crazy because they can never smell it and when i come home i open all of the windows.

globalize this dismiss
validity of plural lives
plural gods, sexualities,
skin colours, spices,
languages.

tuG a WAR
ruBn tUGs full of
womyn abandoned
or kidnapped in
class war

we will not be silenced any longer
we will use your tools to bring you
down and create new societies
where sovernty and land are respected.
colonizer brought poison to land as he
raged on laying his seed unto
the earth's fresh blood and fostered
new generations to overthrough their fathers.

i am complicit in this game;
everyone cheers and shouts
GO GO GO GO GO GO GO

what do we say to the loosers?
the people who don't like playing the game
or don't care.
go back to your country?
go back to the res?
here is a T.B. infected shelter where you will get sexually harrased or have your shit stolen.

HOCKEY DISNEY LAND PLASTIC SURGERY VAN DOUCH HATS $200 SNEAKERS...

violent cultures
violent values
violent to the planet

stop the monoculture in its steps...

think outside the box.

Still reading DeeDee Halleck's book... have taken a temporary break this week as I have a 60-page pdf scrapbook report due on friday and I've only done 10 pages. Should be working on it right now but i just wanted to give an update. My favorite part of DeeDee's book so far is all of the stuff on media democracy/global communications. It is interesting to learn about UNESCO's history. It seems that they were a lot more radical in the 80's... I did some research on their website and they have some cool projects but I didn't find anything as politically charged and anti-colonial/corporate as the MacBride Report. I looked up MacBride on their search engine and I got no hits. It seems like the report goes along with TIG's vision and I have been asking around the office to see if anyone's ever heard of it. I found a neat article from the UN site to the staff listserve with this HUGE article talking about media technology, monopolies, and global citizenship (http://www.undp.org/info21/bg/robinson.htm). Starting to realize how privileged I am as a "wired babe". Even if that means that when I go to a Linux Conference I get snickered at by white men in suites, at least I have the power to grasp this communication technology and create new media. I like DeeDee's idea of the whole point always being about sharing. I think I want to start getting involved with the TAO/OAT collective? I have a few friends who are involved with running their server.... I would learn a lot and then be able to apply the stuff I learned to help people. One of my dreams has been to run a gRRl-tech collective where we would train "at-risk" young womyn with computer stuff. I am tech savy compared to the average girl. Another thing that I learned at the linux conference is that womyn in technology always underestimate our knowledge base. I went with my friend Michelle and we talked to a lot of womyn that were at the booths. There was way more than last year but when we talked to them they always said "Well, I don't really know that much about it. You should ask him". It turned out that they did know a lot about the products they were talking about most of the time and could explain it better than the men (and with less pretension). After noticing that I've decided that I will stop dumbing down. I do know a lot about computers. What I don't know I'll learn and what I do know I'll try to share.