every day i look around my manufactured world feeling helpless and just excepting the way things are. i don't think of myself as someone who could change things... renovate buildings, writing books, making art, designing futures. i leave all of that to the experts.

today i feel like i am in a place of empowerment. finsihing up loose ends at work, going to hungry4change, making ties with cool events and people... taking myself seriously.

wrecking ball wimmin. creating new possibilities.

it was so nice to chill with zeesy and amanda all weekend. d.c. is my home away from home. too bad i puked on moby. he's not really straightedge... he likes little girls, beer, john kerry, and abortion.

Still reading DeeDee Halleck's book... have taken a temporary break this week as I have a 60-page pdf scrapbook report due on friday and I've only done 10 pages. Should be working on it right now but i just wanted to give an update. My favorite part of DeeDee's book so far is all of the stuff on media democracy/global communications. It is interesting to learn about UNESCO's history. It seems that they were a lot more radical in the 80's... I did some research on their website and they have some cool projects but I didn't find anything as politically charged and anti-colonial/corporate as the MacBride Report. I looked up MacBride on their search engine and I got no hits. It seems like the report goes along with TIG's vision and I have been asking around the office to see if anyone's ever heard of it. I found a neat article from the UN site to the staff listserve with this HUGE article talking about media technology, monopolies, and global citizenship (http://www.undp.org/info21/bg/robinson.htm). Starting to realize how privileged I am as a "wired babe". Even if that means that when I go to a Linux Conference I get snickered at by white men in suites, at least I have the power to grasp this communication technology and create new media. I like DeeDee's idea of the whole point always being about sharing. I think I want to start getting involved with the TAO/OAT collective? I have a few friends who are involved with running their server.... I would learn a lot and then be able to apply the stuff I learned to help people. One of my dreams has been to run a gRRl-tech collective where we would train "at-risk" young womyn with computer stuff. I am tech savy compared to the average girl. Another thing that I learned at the linux conference is that womyn in technology always underestimate our knowledge base. I went with my friend Michelle and we talked to a lot of womyn that were at the booths. There was way more than last year but when we talked to them they always said "Well, I don't really know that much about it. You should ask him". It turned out that they did know a lot about the products they were talking about most of the time and could explain it better than the men (and with less pretension). After noticing that I've decided that I will stop dumbing down. I do know a lot about computers. What I don't know I'll learn and what I do know I'll try to share.

last week was pesah! i hosted my first sedar with a big group of radical jews and friends and it will be a part of a documentary on jews in the diaspora who are anti occupation. we read from a number of different haggadahs which related the story of the jews fleeing slavery to modern liberation struggles. we listened to adonai and eye and other jewish dub albums. our meal was mostly vegan/freegan food and we spent only $40 to feed around 20 people. i am thinking of opening up a kosher vegan co-op restaraunt at bathurst and lawrence but my dad tells me that i'm crazy and that i'll loose money. what does that goy know? so yes.....

pesah is a very revolutionary holiday. the bible tells us that we should remember that we were once strangers in the land of egypt and we should have empathy for others who face the same perrils of slavery and oppression.